This evening was the first in a series of evenings at Liverpool Cathedral exploring how to live fruitfully whilst going through infertility. Perhaps we had not given enough attention early enough to publicity: No one came to participate. Those of us that have prayerfully planned and prepared content, food, hearts and minds were there but no one came to gather with us.
We were there in time to create a hospitable environment, food ready to serve, kettle on and praying for those that might come. We waited, nothing happened. There were a couple of false alarms, noises that made us think someone might be on the stairs – that our room would be filled. But a peep out of the door confirmed; no one was coming.
Expectant and yet unfilled, our meeting room much like our wombs…
Our desire to live faithfully and fruitfully in our infertility, the delight we have already found in shared stories, our determination to avoid redundancy with our time and resources meant that the room was far from empty..
We ate well, laughed together, there were tears too but mainly we shared hopes and dreams about how our stories walking with God through infertility might be of some comfort to others. Discussing the tension between how much we would have loved to come to such a course soon after discovering we had fertility issues but how hard it would be to come as the complex emotions create a raw fragility hard to place into the hands of strangers.
In time some of the dreams we shared may come to reality, perhaps a support group, maybe some one day events… perhaps you dream of some kind of support that we might be able to offer?
Meanwhile, we continue to pray that the next four Wednesdays will be fruitful, hopefully with participants joining us. Knowing that with us and God the room will never really be empty.
Next week, if anyone can make it, we will be sharing food, our stories and survival tips from 6:30 in the Radcliffe Room at Liverpool Anglican Cathedral.